Some nights I sleep with a smile on my face
Others I spend in an unfeeling daze
Yet others set the stage for my tears
Which wet my pillow with my dread and my fears
Some nights I dream vivid, pretty dreams
Castles and cupcakes and joyous screams
But at times I dream that the ‘bad man’ has come
And I hug myself tighter, cold and numb
Sometimes it’s my classmates, pretending I’m dead
Sometimes it’s the monster drooling under my bead
Sometimes it’s the boy I love, calling me a slut
And then I awaken with a knotted gut
Sometimes I fear my dreams are parallel worlds
And there exists one where I’m without my curls
And one where my parents sell me to another
One where my friends change like the weather
Other times, they’re scenes from a long time ago
The doubt in her eyes that hurt me so
The lies from the one who hates me sans reason
The words from his mouth, bitter acts of treason
But sometimes I dream of all that’s good
Some people around love me all they could
They say that my broken self is just fine
At least for this moment, their hearts are all mine
The dreams are yet to be subdued
At times, it feels like a timeless feud
But change has come- now I long to be free
I’ve found my kindred, and they’ve found me
Finally my wings have begun to sprout
Before long, I believe I can try them out,
Conquer the world I had feared for so long
And set right all that it had done me wrong.
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For all those who are at war with their own minds 🙂 Keep fighting.
(Sorry for the mostly forced rhymes I’m not very good at poetry yet.)
Superb work👌 Keep writing 😘
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Thank you 🙂
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The rhymes didn’t sound forced at al, i actually for they were unique and made the poem so special. You have a true gift for writing, this was an amazing poem! Keeeeeeep on being amazig!
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You’re a very supportive person! 😀 Thank you very much!
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No such thing your poetry is amazing. Keep sharing please.
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Thank you ^ ^ You’re very kind!
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